d a r n

Anyone might be thinking that I am absolutely blissful spending these times of emptiness and work-free life in a far away seemingly dreamland. I have been here for barely two months now, as if I am unconsciously waiting for the time to be ushered forward, but I could see that this is not exactly the kind of life that would make me happy. I have been spending my seemingly endless days, between sunrise and dusk, mumbling about how things could have changed for the better. I know I am hopelessly asking more out of life, but that’s always the way it is. It is just that I personally think I am not getting any happier whenever and wherever I am now. And I don’t exactly know on what point should I look from. I could not certainly sort things out and make a definite conclusion. I am looking forward to that point in time when everything would mean nothing but a mere memory. Now, I have wanted to avoid thinking anything about it but I could never even bring myself to actually doing that. “You must always know what it is that you want”. I believe I have always been challenged by change, that which is where I am now, but I am not apparently submitting my entire self to adapting well to it. These sorts of things have kept reminding me to stay humble just the way I am. Today, I understand more things than I ever had before. There are probably other things that a mere situation could show you. You would get surprised on how it could essentially widen up the horizon you have always known and lived for every single day. There is never a price greater than knowing oneself better.

Like infrequent currents, much concerns, as elements of a search for something I believed in and desired, are freely streaming through my head. Those that in fact have kept me going and more so, those that have kept me from becoming the happiest person I could ever be. Self-made, indeed. I admittedly recognize that it is I to be blamed. And I am currently working it through.

not lost. just undiscovered.

on relationships

Relationships-of all kinds-are like sand held in your hand-held loosely, with an open hand, the sand remains where it is. The minute you close your hand and squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand trickles through your fingers. You may hold on to some of it, but most will be spilled. A relationship is like that-held loosely, with respect and freedom for the other person, it is likely to remain intact. But held too tightly, too possessively, the relationship slips away and is lost.

random rants

Don't be inquisitive about the affairs of even your most intimate friend.

Don't underrate anything because you don’t possess it.

Don’t conclude that you never had an opportunity in life.

Don’t believe that anybody else is happier than you.

Don’t believe the evils you hear about people.

Don’t repeat gossip, even if it does interest the crowd.

Don’t give compliments that are lacking sincerity.

Learn to hide your heartaches and your woes under a pleasant smile.

Happiness is created – learn how to create it.

late nights

im getting used to long days.. lately, i've been sleeping passed 12am already.. usually, around 2-3am.. ive been doing it over the past few days, a week maybe..watda! im loving it anyway! as usual, i waste my time on things i love doing.. after the review at 9pm, go home straight [if there's nowhere else to go to]..browse the net, movies, food and lots of food .. and i usually leave the laptop on overnight as i download torrents..then the next day, ill be doing the same thing over again.. same cycle.. it's getting routinary..

1. Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.

2. When you lose, don't lose the lesson.

3. Follow the three R's:

Respect for self,

Respect for others, and

Responsibility for all your actions.

4. Remember that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful stroke of luck.

5. Learn the rules so you know how to break them properly.

6. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

7. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.

8. Spend some time alone every day.

9. Open your arms to change, but don't let go of your values.

10. Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.

11. Live a good, honourable life. Then when you get older and think back, you'll be able to enjoy it a second time.

12. A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.

13. In disagreements with loved ones, deal only with the current situation. Don't bring up the past.

14. Share your knowledge. It's a way to achieve immortality.

15. Be gentle with the earth.

16. Once a year, go someplace you've never been before.

17. Remember that the best relationship is one in which your love for each other exceeds your need for each other.

18. Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

19. Approach love and cooking with reckless abandon.

fifteen things god won’t ask

Fifteen Things God Won’t Ask
by: Author Unknown

God won’t ask what kind of car you drove, but will ask how many people you drove who didn’t have transportation.

God won’t ask the square footage of your house, but will ask how many people you welcomed into your home.

God won’t ask about the fancy clothes you had in your closet, but will ask how many of those clothes helped the needy.

God won’t ask about your social status, but will ask what kind of class you displayed.

God won’t ask how many material possessions you had, but will ask if they dictated your life.

God won’t ask what your highest salary was, but will ask if you compromised your character to obtain that salary.

God won’t ask how much overtime you worked, but will ask if you worked overtime for your family and loved ones.

God won’t ask how many promotions you received, but will ask how you promoted others.

God won’t ask what your job title was, but will ask if you reformed your job to the best of your ability.

God won’t ask what you did to help yourself, but will ask what you did to help others.

God won’t ask how many friends you had, but will ask how many people to whom you were a true friend.

God won’t ask what you did to protect your rights, but will ask what you did to protect the rights of others.

God won’t ask in what neighborhood you lived, but will ask how you treated your neighbors.

God won’t ask about the color of your skin, but will ask about the content of your character.

God won’t ask how many times your deeds matched your words, but will ask how many times they didn’t.